..it is a color..

..Simply stated simple minded love for You Has simply been completely complicated And I’m finding this daily drudgery is finally catching up to me It’s time for this abandon to make much of You and less of me I want to breathe in I want to breathe in and out again I’m tired of putting one foot in front of the other I’m weary of where it leads me to I’m tired of moving on from my Father Make me rest my head, take a breath or two ..

..the road I'm on..

So lately I've been thinking. Scary? Yes I know. But apparently it is something I'm suppose to do. Anyway, here are the results of this little brainstorm.
I'm on this road. It's a long, windy road full of bumps and curves, detours and probably even a couple of required exits. I didn't exactly WANT to be on this road and this particular time, but regardless of my wants, here I am and I've got to deal with it.
Bro. Weeks talked about the battles we're fighting. The biggest giants we deal with. I'm up against my Goliath. My flesh wants to cave in and take the easy way out. But I know that I am exactly where I need to be. Yeah, I'm scared. I admit it. Ya happy? I'm pretty much terrified right now. But ya know, once the sting of the first few months wears off, I'll be better. I'll be a new me. Hopefully a better me. And I realize that Goliath is just the first of many. Sadly, David's fighting days didn't end when he put down that slingshot. After Goliath there's Saul, the Amalekites, that whole thing with Bathsheba and Uriah, and not to mention the problems with his kids. But look at all the good things that came from that guy! God was with him. God will be with me, too.
So I'm putting my foot out there and stepping onto this road. Okay, so I feel like I'm kinda being pushed onto it. =) And I probably won't be walking very fast at first. But I'm making an effort. I'll buy some new running shoes or something and eventually I'll be watching the miles go by. Mile marker 1. 2. 3..

..What you thought was real in life somehow steered you wrong
Now you just keep drivin' tryin' to find out where you belong

I know you feel helpless now and I know you feel alone
That's the same road, that same road that I am on..


..I wish I had what I need
To be on my own
'Cause I feel so defeated
And I'm feeling alone

And it all seems so helpless
And I have no plans
I'm a plane in the sunset
With nowhere to land

And all I see
It could never make me happy And all my sand castles
Spend their time collapsing

Let me know that You hear me
Let me know Your touch
Let me know that You love me
Let that be enough

It's my birthday tomorrow
No one here could know
I was born this Thursday
22 years ago

And I feel stuck
Watching history repeating
Yeah, who am I?
Just a kid who knows he's needy

Let me know that You hear me
Let me know Your touch
Let me know that You love me
And let that be enough..

Little Rockstar~

Everyday this little guy gives us more and more reasons to be crazy about him. He let us play with his hair and of course, I had to document the end result =)






With everything that's been happening in our family lately, this song keeps coming to my mind. I hate how things are playing out, I really do. More than anything I hate that I won't be able to see him everyday while he's changing and growing up. He's more than just a little brother.. He's my little man.

"Gavin's Song" by Marc Broussard .

I wish you freedom
I wish you peace
I wish you nights of stars
That beckon you to sleep
I wish you heartache
That leaves you more of a man
I wish I could be there
But I can't

I wish you places
That sit so still
Where people never ever change
and never ever will
I wish I could hold you
And make you understand
I wish I could be there
But I can't

Be good for your mama
Cause she'll need a hand to hold
Boy, she loves you
More than you'll ever know
There are rhymes and there are reasons
And times when nothing stayed the same
But you know my love still remains

I wish you wisdom
I wish you years
I wish you armies
To conquer all your fears
I wish you courage
for all that life demands
I wish I could be there
But I can't
Be good for your mama
Cause she'll need a hand to hold
Boy, she loves you
More than you'll ever know
There are rhymes and there are reasons
And times when nothing stayed the same
But you know my love still remains

I wish we were together
I wish I was home
I wish there were nights
Where I was never alone
I know I've said it
But I'll say it once again
I wish I could be there
But I can't..